Hello there, whoever you are..

So 2016 started off with a bang. Fantastic, to be honest. Boyfriend, and then some :)

Fast forward to January 15th, I stopped getting work from the agency I worked for. Depression started, really bad thoughts started crossing my mind, was on the verge of death. That continued for about 2 weeks. I've told my dad about it and he straight away bought me a ticket to Lithuania. I thought "great, maybe some one will be able to fix me, whatever's wrong with me any way".

I brought weed with me by accidents, never got caught by any one. The real trouble started when my dad found the weed and he was the one to call the cops. I just slept in a cell for few hours and that's that. Some one received a decent bribe, methinks. I was out the same day. Lithuania is full of this kind of corruption, I hate it.

Fast forward few days, I am taken to a psychiatric hospital. It was actually worse than I imagined, something out of Soviet times. Scary at first, got injected with diazepam, people there were hearing voices, terrifying shit like that.

Anyways, I stayed there for a month, met awesome people, even made friends. But the last 2 weeks.. They were just awesome..
I became friends with this Russian girl. Friendship progressed into something more.. We were always together, kept getting closer and closer.. Showed love to each other.. At first to piss off the nurses, I thought it was a joke, but then, about a week before I left, it turned out to be real. Damn, I thought.. This can't be real.. No one could separate us, we ate together, smoked, held hands almost every where.. On the last day, when I was leaving, I didn't want to go any more, I wanted to stay because of her.. When my dad came to pick me up, we went for a cigarette. We hugged, while we both smoked.. After we walked, we kissed, for real. I think I only felt that similar feeling with another girl from the past. Except this time, it was stronger. I hope this is a crush.. Because it will be difficult to keep it up in the lovely Lithuania. I expected to find a guy here easily, but this was x100 better.
Now that I was transferred to a diferrent place, a better one, where food isn't half bad.. I still want to leave. I miss that girl soo bad, even though we talk every day for few hours.. She is also leaving that hospital this week. She will be coming here to the day center. It shall be interesting.. Ahhh feelings..
I know that this will be a short romance, but I just don't want to miss out on this just yet.. We will see where it goes. Bloody hell.