Let's just say I'm glad to be alive after this weekend :)
I am grateful for my friends, they are my family now. My mum and maybe my sister (she's controlled by my mother) doesn't love me anymore, I've moved out. Well, they kicked me out. I've injured my right arm and they couldn't even help me move my stuff. My mother and her friend were drinking f***ing posh wine and just sitting there. My sister helped me with the bags, at least. But now, neither my sister nor my mum called ever since I was kicked out. Nada! My sister is probably scared of my mum, probably got threatened by my mum. Anyways, she will be sent to University, coz my mum wants an easy life, posh dinners, holidays and dirty sex with disgusting old men. Sad :(  She made nasty comments towards me, while I was getting my stuff out, as usual. But now I found out that she was jealous of her ex best friend that she used for everything, that took me in as her daughter. I was treated with respect and kindness, by her friend. I've never gotten that from my mum.

Things are looking up though, but my god, this weekend I've had could easily be a great film. What I've lived though, what I've seen. I should be dead, I'm serious. It could've happened.
But it's so hard.. I miss her soo much and there's nothing I can do about it.
I've stopped drinking and being crazy. There is no point in killing yourself for a girl that will never be with you or even care. I'll find someone better, there's 2 potential girls already, just have to make a choice really ;) They are both really cute.. It's hard hehe.
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Victim support team called and they said they will help me get a flat, in the area I like. I am so happy that help like this exists.

My auntie is sad, but she is not drinking. At least there's that. She cried on the phone to me this morning. And I can't help her. I feel bad.
Right now, I just need to get a flat and a 2nd job. Maybe a dog. That'd be nice. Or a girl ;)
Things are definitely looking up ;)

I've got an idea for a film or a book, what I've seen and been through this weekend is better than anything I've seen in my life lol. CRAZY AND DANGEROUS.
I might write something nice here, when I'm up and running again ;)